Baby J

Come December, Adam and I will have a new leader of our club... our BABY!  It's crazy!!  Crazy to know there is a living, heart beating, breathing little fetus in my body.  It's crazy to watch my body slowly change shapes.  I am woman, hear me roar.  I never looked so... so... female?   It's been crazy to share the news with everyone, some reveals didn't work out the way I had wanted them too, but overall everyone seems to be excited... a lot of people had seemingly given up on the thought or idea of children in our future... so to see some surprised faces was fun.  It's funny to hear things like "I thought you didn't like kids." or "Are you sure you are pregnant?" "I didn't know you were trying." or "It's about time."  As if you can choose when a life will be started within you.  People say the darndest things, and think they should be privy to decisions we have made and hardships we have endured.  And in pregnancy, it still rings true.

The funniest thing that someone has said to me...  "You'll be a wonderful, and a bit wacky, mommy."  I couldn't be more pleased with this statement.  While a lot of my ideas and thoughts are unconventional about all things in life... and you may roll your eyes or shake your head at what I think or what I do or what I get mad about or what I love.  I can't change a thing about it.  And I have never quite cared.  People who accept it have stayed, and I have lost a few to my wackiness.   I am certainly going to try my best to give this baby a great life in a world full of maddness.  And to do what I think is right.  I will accept advice... but I will not feel bad if I choose not to follow it.  I will try to lead by example.  I will understand that everyone does it differently.  I will have a few things on my registry that are mostly for me and not baby.  I look forward to all the unknown ways a baby will change your life and your heart about things, things you didn't even know it would.  But in the end it's super scary to think about a future with baby.  I don't want to mess him or her up too bad. 

"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for." -unknown.